"More Changes..."

...adapting is tough.

One of the things I really hate is CHANGE. But, like how my ever famous lecturer once quoted "The only thing constant, is change!"

First day of primary school...ADAPT! I just left a comfortable kindergarten to enter this big school. Every little boy was a pain that time and I had a girl classmate who was crazy (i.e. getting mad at anyone at anytime without any particular reason.) but I thought of her as best friend then though she pinched me a lot cos I guess I din really know how to choose friends then.  I was getting used to all this, when..

First day at new school (still in primary: Standard 4)...ADAPT again! It wasn't that bad le, I had a childhood friend already studying in that school. But, that's when I got my first pair of geeky glasses. I came in way after they've started their syllabus, I had to catch with homework, the teacher was writing a lot of stuff on the board (new girl sits behind)...I realise I couldn't see a single word. That began the new phase of big round plastic geeky glasses (if you identify with me, keep your hands down!)...

First day at high school...tried to ADAPT again! First impression always counts, that's the first lesson I was never taught in primary school. By this time, I've put on a tonne of weight (if I only I could scan pics to show you!), so with a belly and gold metal round-framed glasses...I made quite a bad impression on seniors. So, all my attempts to adapt, FAILED. I was the outcast and the last to get picked for any activity in school (if you identify with me again, please keep ur hands down..for real!). I only felt at home again when I became senior, gained a bit more confidence and real friends, and then...

First day in college...ADAPT I did! I finally found a place I belong. No one knew me here, no one knew my past, so I could start afresh. Haha, by now I did kinda realise that image is important. I started dressing better (not in baggy t-shirts and lose grandma-faded-jeans) and I started being more extrovert. I joined a tonne of activities, was involved in a lot of committees and was totally braver than I thought I was...even emcee-ed in front of 1500 people and sang for charity drives (didn't sing well, but at least I got the money in!). Just when everything was going well...

I had to further my studies in KL...ADAPT again, again! This time, I was quite the turtle again. I stopped being active. The only thing I was going to do was go to classes, try to make the grades and pass. Won't say my entire college life was bad, I had two awesome friends/housemates and met a bunch of new, crazy people. They made life in college quite easy. Finding a church and fitting in was HARD though. Went to many for try-outs, but none fit that well...it's nothing to do with God (He's the same yesterday, today and forever), I just wasn't comfortable with the culture. (I won't list down the number of churches I visited!)

I finally know how it felt like being a visitor to church. It can be very scary. I always grew up in church, so I never really felt new or lost before. It was good experience except the part where they make you stand up, it actually can be quite the scary, ok?! Haha...but we just really want to welcome le!

First day in my current church (ACTS Church)...ADAPT again, again & again! Here, I've been through quite a lof of changes...from team-coloured Huddles, to Homes, to disintegration of Huddles to many, many others...it was quite an exciting ride. I guess changes happen for the better always (as long as it's God-centred)...we'll see where this next phase leads us to! I started out quite lost also, and never really fitted in...but now, it's finally FAMILY! I feel right at home...wanna find out bout my church, log on to : www.theactschurch.org 

*Tsk tsk* This has been a really long post but yea, coming to an end...wait for it...it's coming! I'm still trying to adapt to this last area...WORK! Lol...I just started 2 months ago, so eveyrthing I'm learning is fresh from the oven...still trying to get used to Lotus Notes, PwC jargons and acronyms...and the work culture! I remember saying, "I don't want a job that makes me work more than 5pm and on weekends!" Now, guess what, I'm doing exactly that. Irony. I'm giving myself one year first, taking it slow will make things less stressful for me...

Change, change, change. I never stopped going through it. So if I did, do tell me I'm either boring or already 6-feet under.